The human experience connects all of us together through our shared understandings of what it means to have a physical, mental and emotional body. Each one of us is the expression of the sum total of our physical, mental and emotional experiences in life; the total which ultimately defines our heart response and our capacity for love. Our barriers to love can be found in the root of these life experiences. If we explore these observations, we find there are three big emotions which tend to permeate our realities, and which leave an imprint. Grief is rooted in our emotional body understanding; anger is rooted in our mental body understanding; and fear is rooted in our physical body understanding. Before we can address our grief and anger, it is necessary to uncover the rot of our disintegrated fear.
What is fear, and from where does it originate? Fear is an emotional response to our perception of the physical body’s vulnerability and mortality. We are afraid of physical harm to our bodies, of physical illness and injury and the idea of death. Our level of fear in the physical body depends upon how much we are fixated and attached to our life experiences as being solely physical. The greater our attachment to the physical body, the deeper our fear is rooted in the physical experience. If we can discern beyond the physical to our spiritual capacity, we can ease this fear. In other words, if we cannot connect to the root of our fear, we cannot unlock the door within ourselves to the higher evolutionary awareness of our true purpose and being. Thus, many mystics speak of fear as being the key to our self-awareness.
Our fear resides in the shadow parts of ourselves. Shadow energy is primarily inherited baggage and cultural conditioning which results in thoughts we entertain about the past or the future. It is not rooted in the now, and therefore, has no power in the present. We give fear power when we attribute it with the influence of past experiences or future fears of what might come. Because our fearful thoughts translate into emotional discomfort, our fears become emotionally charged. Now we are afraid of emotionally drowning or expressing our fear in ways that can only perpetuate this fear. Our run away fear indicates a need to attend to our interior, and confront our disintegrated fears.
A helpful exercise is to make a list of all our fears, and trace each one back to ts source and root of origination. We are not trying to change our fears as much as to recognize their root in order to integrate them. Fear is a natural response as is grief and anger, but disintegrated fear grants fear itself the insidious power to run our lives. Fear trapped in the shadows begins to manifest into more shadows: our fear of being hurt by others can cause us to turn a deaf ear, become impatient, distracted and confused; our fear of speaking our truth can result in our indifference, dissatisfaction, conflict, agitation, division, intolerance and judgement. As we analyze the root of our fears, we come to realize that they are really nothing but ghosts in the mind. While our fear of not having enough money, not feeling loved, not being successful may loom larger than life over us, the only way out into a full life is into the death of our fears. Our imagined fears once released open the flood gates for our creative potential to flow. In this flow, we experience a potent antidote to replace each of our fears which are sustained by the grace to let go, and trust. Trust that our journey into the dark, emotional waters of our being will allow us to morph our fears within the shadow illusions, and into the light where we can see clearly past our fearful shadows. In essence, we must die to our fear whereupon our fears become integrated into our physical body as a new understanding of courage. Only then can we transform our fear into wings with which to soar with the dragonfly.