For most of my life, I have been committed to understanding and consciously participating in my spiritual growth. I embarked on the road less traveled in my thirties after reading Scott Peck’s book about this less traveled road, and shortly afterwards, traveled to Galisteo, New Mexico to study at The Light Institute with Chris Criscom. My spiritual journey began here in the land of enchantment, and little did I know then, that ten years later I would move to this enchanted land where it would be my home for sixteen years. At my current crossroad in life, I have come to understand that one of the most essential secrets within the laws of spirit is how to navigate spiritual growth from energy in motion, or emotion.
Over the course of the last thirty years, I have immersed myself in breath work, energy work, chakra healing, sacred dance, Native American ceremonies, past life regression, soul retrieval, drum circles, dream work, astrology, meditation, chanting, shamanism, plant medicine, various healing modalities and more. It has been quite the journey. While one might expect me to be walking on water by now, the laws of this third dimensional planetary realm continues to present me with lessons and challenges, both personally and collectively. While I have unquestionably accumulated an abundance of spiritual knowing and experience, I remain an emotional being. I will honestly admit, as I have searched for a more enlightened state of being, I sought to find both healing of and freedom from my emotions. While the healing and freedom from our lower vibrational emotions, such as fear, anger and grief, are a legitimate and worthy search, I possessed a tendency and a desire to deny the true guidance of my emotions. I sought rather to suppress the emotions which brought me discomfort, and to elevate and cultivate those which gave me comfort. And while there is deep truth and power in feeling good, I was not fully embracing the lessons of my uncomfortable energy in motion.
There are 317 million people in America today. Statistics show that 1 in 10 Americans are taking anti-depressants which equates to 31,700,000 people, and 7,291,000 of them are women between the ages of 40 and 50. The studies also reveal that women are 2 1/2 times more likely to take anti-depressants than men. Why are more than 31 million Americans reaching for anti-depressants? Why more women than men? Why are women between 40 and 50 the largest group?
I am not sure that we collectively recognize all our emotions as valuable energy in motion from which we can learn and grow. While Americans dwell in the land of the free and the home of the brave, global governments in every nation perpetuate an agenda of domination and control. Thus, we collectively have either reactive or responsive emotions to this unfortunate reality while also personally struggling with both the state of the world and our own life stories. I am aware the use of anti-depressants can provide a lifeline, even a life saver, in certain circumstances, but I do not feel they provide lasting solutions. The question which needs to be asked by Americans is are we truly free? And are we brave enough to feel our suppressed emotions and fight for the change we want?
Women possess a natural tendency towards understanding our connection as human beings to all life, and they are naturally more in tune with and sensitive to their feelings and emotions. The long history of women’s suffrage and persecution has left some deep scars. This combination, along with the complexity of female hormones, can easily become a recipe for depression. I think women innately know they can heal their depression without anti-depressants by allowing their painful feelings to expose the inner dragons they must slay in order to be free.
The recent death of our beloved actor and comedian, Robin Williams, is a testimony to one having everything, and yet losing happiness. Our emotions, whether low or high, create a particular chemical state within the body to which we either react or respond. When we react to our uncomfortable emotional state of being, our choices are different than if we respond. Our reactions to unpleasant emotions is usually to find the quickest way to stop feeling them, but in doing so, we may miss the guidance and lessons they are offering us. Perhaps a wiser choice is to respond wherein we muster the courage to find support and connection while we peel the layers of our feelings to get to the source of our uncomfortable emotions. Our ups and downs of feeling good or feeling bad are akin to all cycles in nature. If we are all one with life, nature and one another, and everything is energy, then we have nowhere to hide from the natural cycles of life to which we are intimately connected, both personally and collectively. When the not so good feelings come, and we choose to respond rather than react, we allow our emotions to guide us to both the cause and the solution. The cause is most often our chosen thoughts and conditioned beliefs, and the solution requires our conscious presence to both witness and examine these. In doing so, we are gifted the opportunity to see how the quality of our thoughts and beliefs result in specific emotions. It becomes a high spiritual journey to reclaim our sovereign self in whom we realize the power of our thoughts and beliefs to create our own reality. Our reaction or response to that reality determines the energy we set in motion as defined by our emotions, and how we inevitably feel about ourselves and life.
The Universal Law of Attraction dictates that like attracts like on the energetic level. Thus, whatever energy we set in motion reflects our thoughts and perceptions. If the reality we create makes us feel good, then we can trust our thoughts and beliefs are aligning with the highest spiritual expression of who we are. If we are not feeling good, then our created reality is not in alignment with the highest expression of our true self. We are then allowing our perceptions to keep us prisoners of our own suffering.
The dragonfly, in its life as a nymph under the water, undergoes a series of molts before it is ready to climb the stalk out of the water and take to the air in a new life with wings. As human beings, we, too, must experience a process of molting in the emotional waters of life. We are not ready to soar on iridescent wings with confidence until we gain the wisdom that comes from shedding old, ancestral, outdated beliefs and thoughts which are responsible for our emotional wounds, and trauma. The dragonfly holds the dream…the dream we must all dream together to restore unity consciousness, and end the separation which keeps us trapped in emotional dramas. In essence, it becomes the hero’s, or heroine’s, journey to slay the dragons of their own making, and restore the power of the sovereign individual, and collective, to create change.
Our spiritual growth from energy in motion depends upon our willingness to ride the emotional wave; whereupon our natural cycles of good or bad feelings become the best barometer we have for monitoring our spiritual progress. While anti-depressants may offer temporary relief, they numb us to the wisdom of this emotional barometer with the inevitable re-surfacing of our inner dragons. We simply must feel all our feelings, and allow them to guide us towards more exalted, positive thoughts and perceptions which reflect the essence and vitality of a spiritual being having a human experience. As we allow the valuable wisdom contained in all our emotions to be our guide, we will move towards more pure and light filled thoughts which reflect and reveal the wonders of our spiritual essence, and which transcend and transform all the limitations and challenges of being human.
I await my beautiful wings on which to fly above the lower, emotional, vibrational waters which are no longer a reflection of who I am becoming.
Imagine a world where the trapped emotions, fears, anxieties and unprocessed life experiences we hold in our bodies are the source of everything that ails us. That’s the world we live in. Now imagine a world where everyone is manifesting from their heart the perfect creation that’s inside each of us. Imagine a world where abundance, inner peace, longevity and loving relationships abound. Imagine emotion experts from around the world sharing their wisdom and negative emotion clearing techniques to light a new pathway for humanity. Imagine we are sacred, spiritual beings here for a much larger reason, serving a much higher purpose, a divine purpose. That’s where we’re going.